In August of 2001, I was trying to escape hell. I was withdrawing from a nine-year opioid habit in the bedroom of my parents home. After 3 days of horrific illness, I felt good enough to turn on the television. My favorite movie Shawshank Redemption was the first thing that came on the screen. At the end of the movie, Red played by Morgan Freeman said get busy living or get busy diving. I received the message and a few days later I felt good enough to get out of the house and I went to my first 12 step meeting. My life was forever changed and I never had to use again. I had been going to meetings every day and was grateful for my new way of life.
After 102 days clean my sponsor brought me to a meeting in jail. When we were waiting to get cleared in, he said that tonight was a night I was going to remember for the rest of my life. He said that I was going to tell my story at the meeting. I had major apprehension because my biggest fear in life was speaking in front of people. He said that so far in your recovery you have been practicing honesty, hope, surrender, acceptance, and gratitude. He said that it is time for you to start practicing courage. I got up in front of 50 guys in blue suits and started to tell my story. A few minutes into my message I witnessed my burning bush miracle. I realized that I was speaking in front of people and they were all hanging on my every word. The guy who could not speak in front of people could not shut up. When I opened the meeting up, people shared that I had given them hope. I realized that there was a God and that God had a purpose for me.
My purpose is to carry the message to the addict who is still suffering. All because I took direction from a mentor and practiced courage I found God, found my voice, and discovered my purpose. From that day on I have been living a fulfilled life based on personal development and service to others.